Many of you have said
that you can't pretend to understand how we must feel...
but actually,
I think most of you actually can empathize
with what we are going through...
It's evident in the way you have taken care of us.
I actually think you can imagine what this feels like
and that's why we have been covered in loved
through the past few weeks.
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From the immediate arrival of family
to be by our sides
as we said goodbye to our daughter...
Family stroll through to Kensington Palace in an attempt to get some fresh air. |
Grandparents out for lunch in Notting Hill |
A field trip out of the house for tea at Fortnum & Mason with my mom & Tyler's mom |
... dinners & groceries dropped at our door...
... gorgeous flowers & sweet gifts sent
to brighten our day and remember our girls ...
She likes our shenanigans, don't be fooled. |
messages of encouragement sent with perfect timing...
... and the faces of loved ones that come
and offer hugs of support
or that stay for a while
reminding us that life is good
and that we are blessed.
You've rejoiced with us for the arrival of Viola
and you've grieved with us for the loss of our daughter.
Going through this with others
has made it bearable in a way
I hope that I never forget.
Thank you so much
for helping us calibrate
to our new normal.
Viola's first Saturday morning on Portobello Road |
I've read every single email that has come to my inbox.
Some make me cry big tears
and some make me laugh...
I'm so grateful for the friendships
I've made with so many of you.
The blogging community
is an amazingly cool, smart
& good-hearted crew.
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And yes, the blog posts you've been seeing
were written in advance
in anticipation of having my hands full post-delivery.
My brain isn't that functional yet. ;)
Y'all are still in my prayers! Viola is precious, and you are right - you are truly blessed. :-)
ReplyDeleteOh, that picture of Viola with her sweet little smile and wink is so beautiful. It is clear to see how loved she feels. So very nice to see you surrounded by the love and support of your families. Have been thinking of you often these past few weeks and am happy to read this post of how you are doing at this time. All the very best, Michele
ReplyDeleteMorning m'liege! I loved seeing these pictures of little Viola and the fam. So glad you have your family close to your side.Encouraged by your strength! Miss you love you and can't wait to see you again and squeeze that little lady. Hey too Tyler!
ReplyDeleteViola in the basket is perfect. So skeptical. Welcome to the rest of your life, little friend.
ReplyDeleteI've been thinking about your little family a lot. That little girl that you have is beyond precious & that little smile is just perfect. :)
ReplyDeleteThank you for the update.
ReplyDeleteStill thinking of you,
Michelle
This might very well be my most favourite post of yours Lauren. I love the photo of the grandparents with Viola, especially after getting to briefly meet them. Lots of love friend xxx
ReplyDeleteAhh! The pics of your little peanut are otherworldly cute! We've never met and never may. But you continue to be in my thoughts regularly...daily almost. Loved this little update on your new family. Stay strong. :) hugs xx
ReplyDeleteViola is so adorable! Still praying for you and your family.
ReplyDeleteLove the pictures and the update! It's already hard to remember what life was like before she arrived, isn't it? The love is amazing, isn't it? She is perfect in every way. Love seeing your faces on here! Still praying and thinking of your family every day!
ReplyDeleteOnce again, you've said it all perfectly. Viola has such a classy mum, I can only imagine what a lovely woman she'll turn out to be.
ReplyDeleteAnd why is it whenever I see her, I just want to buy her an adorable little tutu?
You and your family are so beautiful...both inside and out. Sending so many hugs to you and that precious little bundle of yours. xoxo
ReplyDeleteGlad to see you are out and about getting some fresh air! What an amazing and beautiful you've got there - so very touched. Viola is so beautiful, so sweet, and so lucky to be with you and your family :)
ReplyDeleteAt the risk of making a rather shallow comment in what is an unspeakably difficult time for you, you look absolutely lovely! Really, the picture of your sweet family on Portobello Road is glowing. I don't mean that to downplay what you all have been through, but just wanted to leave a bit of cheer. At age 27, I still haven't made it to Portobello Road, so I am envious of Viola in a big way!
ReplyDeleteViola is so beautiful. She clearly has both you and Tyler, as well as some sprinkling of both sets of grandparents in her. I am so grateful so many family and friends are with you in the present, as you reflect on the past, and dote on Viola, your future.
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Love you guys so much. You have been and will continue to be in our prayers. She is adorable.
ReplyDeleteDan & Kelli
Viola is perfect! You are a sweet family! Still praying for you!
ReplyDeleteYou guys are in our prayers continually Lauren. So glad you had the blessing of having so many family members around you during this time. So amazing to be showered with such love.
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Bonnie
I am so happy you guys are adjusting and enjoying this sweet time with Viola! It makes my heart smile! You look fabulous and Viola is the sweetest little thing! I'm always thinking of you Lauren! Many blessings! XO
ReplyDeleteYou are so right to embrace your new normal. It takes a village and a lot of love to be a Mom an Dad.
ReplyDeleteThere is not a day where I do not think of you all and what fantastic parents you are.
Acceptance requires grace and that both of you have - in spades.
pve
So much love to you and your family. I'm a new reader but am sending my thoughts and prayers your way. Your sweet Viola is a beautiful little girl and God is bigger than it all and doesn't leave us which I pray provides you comfort.
ReplyDeletexoxo
So happy that you have been showered with love and support.
ReplyDeleteI love your photographs - Viola is so precious.
Wishing you continued blessings and a wonderful journey ahead.
xox
thinking of you and your sweet family. so glad you are being showered with love from all angles!
ReplyDeleteShe is so so precious. I'm so thankful that you have family and friends that can be there for you and help the adjustment. I love seeing the pictures and I'm of course continuing to think about you guys. I also think I need to watch my use of the word so. 3 times is too much in two sentences. :)
ReplyDeleteDear Lauren, Baby Viola and Tyler,
ReplyDeleteJust sending a huge, humongous hugh with warm arms and teary eyes!
Love from Portugal!
Ohh! And, Lauren you look FABULOUS, btw!!
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How wonderful that your family was able to come over and spend this time with you and Tyler. Continuing to think of your family and sending prayers your way. This post was quite bittersweet for me, but I love hearing that you are working on finding that new "normal", I pray that you find that stride soon.
ReplyDeleteBig hugs. What an incredible testimony to the healing power of love you are. Blessings for your new beautiful daughter.
ReplyDeleteIt looks as though you have had a lovely time with your family. Viola is beautiful xx
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you've had your family surrounding you both and Viola to love on! I'm still praying for healing for you.
ReplyDeleteEmily at Amazing Grapes
Is it just me or does Viola look like a little British babe? Is that even possible??? Love all the baby photos. Keep 'em coming please! xoxo
ReplyDeleteIt is so nice to see photos of your family. I have been worrying about you. I am glad to see you smiling.
ReplyDeleteSuch beautiful pictures of a beautiful family. What a blessing to have your family with you, too! You guys will continue to be in our thoughts and prayers!
ReplyDeleteWow, who would've thought that the blogging community could be such a blessing!
ReplyDeleteSo happy to hear that.
Still praying for you and your family as you adjust to finding your new 'normal'.
Oh, and Viola? What a cutie!
hugs!
You look wonderful. Viola is beautiful. So nice to see you out & about and so well taken care of.
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What I love most about blogging is that we can all learn from each other. Sometimes it is something tangible like putting together an outfit, but sometimes, it is learning more about the type of person I want to be. Sometimes it is observing the strength, grace, and goodness in people in difficult circumstances, like you and Tyler. Thank you!
ReplyDeleteyou are loved. cant wait to spend a few days in london with ya soon...hopefully in april.
ReplyDeleteYou have such a beautiful family! Viola is so beautiful, and blessed to be surrounding by an amazing family. You are all in my prayers! xo
ReplyDeleteYou have a gorgeous baby girl and you are glowing with mommyhood. My congratulations and sympathies to you for all you have been through.
ReplyDeleteThat picture of you and your family walking through Kensington Palace makes my heart SO happy :) So glad you have such a strong support structure even though you live across the ocean. Viola is just beautiful beyond words and thoughts and prayers will keep coming your way for Baby B. Lots of love coming your way from South Africa.
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Jenna
Lauren you're fantastic!!!I really thought about you 3 a lot in these days, and I'm sooo happy to see that you're getting better!
ReplyDeleteYou deserve to be fine, and to be happy, with your little baby girl!
So I keep my finger crossed for you!!!
I send you a big, huge hug!!!!
So special to see you surrounded by family and love. Thank you so much for sharing, Lauren. Thoughts and prayers are with you all every day. Viola is a such a beautiful baby! Hugs to you all.
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Selena
so so so much love to you guys. she is so beautiful and so tiny! like a precious little doll! thank you for the email response but totally not necessary! still in my thoughts and prayers! enjoy this time ahead and learning about mamahood!
ReplyDeleteI can imagine slightly how you feel. Amongst other things, I can imagine the love you are feeling - love going out of you and love being put upon you. And on a really light note... can I please be part of your family? Everyone is gorgeous! Geesh. Lucky.
ReplyDeleteThose are such sweet pictures! My heart has been heavy for you since the birth of Viola. I've been praying for you every time your story popped into my head and will keep doing so! -Courtney
ReplyDeleteYou and your family are amazing. Congratulations on your new baby girl and saying a big prayer for you!
ReplyDeleteYoure all so adorable, especially that little ones
ReplyDeletexo
www.carlyonqueue.blogspot.com
Such a beautiful family! Lots of love and prayers are coming your way!
ReplyDeleteAnd what beautiful pictures of your sweet family! Yah!
thank YOU for your strength and sharing your story. you are making such a difference to so many. prayers your way, god bless you new mama.
ReplyDeleteYou and your family have been and will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. You are a beautiful family.
ReplyDeleteYou are a strong family and isn't Viola lucky to have you all. Many thoughts & prayers have been coming your way and will continue.
ReplyDeleteMy heart just literally dropped for what you have been through. Wish I had some wise words for you but feel helpless. Little Viola is absolutely beautiful and I'm so glad that she has such loving parents. I am so happy you have such a wonderful support system of family and friends. xo
ReplyDeleteLauren, you write so beautifully. I have been so amazed by your perspective throughout this miracle/tragedy. You are loved and prayed for on a daily basis. I loved seeing these pictures of your family and Tyler's parents. Glad you had loved ones with you!
ReplyDeleteHi Lauren,
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to say that I absolutely love your blog. It inspires me and warms my heart to see all the amazing places you have travelled and done it on a realisitic budget. It makes me believe that its possible for that to happen for me too (kinda a dream of mine). But even though I dont know you... it warms my heart even more to read this post. I am so happy for you and all the blessings you have in your life at this time. I wish you and your new family the best :)
Lauren,
ReplyDeleteI have to admit to continually checking your blog, in hopes of updates. I feel better today seeing the 3 of you together and surrounded by family. I especially love the photo with Viola snuggled right into your chest. Precious.
Calibrate is such a good way to describe your transition...love, loss and parenthood. Just keep going. Some days will be better than others, but you are assured of having some tremendous days ahead. And, I see a whole new series in the works with Viola in that basket of goodies.
From one relocated Texas gal (and mother) to another....xoxo Elizabeth
These photos made me smile SO big :) You have such a beautiful family, and I'm so happy you all feel so supported in this extremely difficult time. Viola is absolutely adorable, that little smile just melts my heart! Thanks for sharing your incredible story! <3 <3
ReplyDeleteI can't tell you how happy this post makes me, to see you surrounded by family and love. I'm sure living overseas has its own challenges, but this was one situation where I was hoping you could have those you love around you, and I'm so glad they have had the determination and means to make it happen.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for sharing a little bit of your life. :)
love seeing your sweet girl's face.
ReplyDeleteViola is just too perfect, and so tiny! I am so happy for you that you seem to have such an incredible family, who must be such an amazing support right now. So much love to you all x
ReplyDeleteviola is beautiful and so teeny tiny. oh how i miss my little one being a newborn already. and she is one cool baby girl, already hanging in all the cool places :)
ReplyDeleteGood to see those smiling faces :) Viola is one gorgeous little girl! I hope one day [when she's like 15 and angsty] you show her the picture of the time you put her in a gift basket... xx
ReplyDeleteHi Lauren! Thanks for the update on your cute little family. Sometimes writing things down is hard, but sometimes it's also theraputic. I've been reading your blog for a while and had such a heavy heart when I read your post last week I actually couldn't even write anything. But I wanted to say how gorgeous your little girl is and what a perfect, sweet family you have. The daughter you lost will always be with you, a sweet little angel that you will never forget. Plus you get to see her and know her in Viola's eyes. Hugs to you!
ReplyDeleteKeep on surrounding yourself with love and smiles!
ReplyDeletexoxo,
Chic 'n Cheap Living
I've only just now come to your blog and read about your loss, and your beautiful new arrival. I am so, so sorry. There are no words. I also want to say congratulations on the birth of Viola, she looks beautiful and you both look so enamoured. So much love and blessings to you and your family xox
ReplyDeleteYou are a beautiful and inspiring mom. I too have gone through a great loss, although of a different nature, and my heart aches and aches for you. There are holes that we will never completely fill, but the support and love and care from others sure makes it better. Please know you're in my thoughts!
ReplyDeleteI only just read that you have given birth! Congratulations! Viola is beautiful. I am so sorry for your loss of baby b. your posts are articulate and beautiful. Wishing your new family a very happy future x
ReplyDeleteI'm so behind on commenting! Jenny had let me know the heartache and joy you guys were experiencing, and you have been in my prayers ever since. Precious Viola is absolutely beautiful, and you my dear look to good to have just given birth! I know you will be such a good momma & always keep your other sweet baby's memory alive in your family. The prayers continue as you walk the road of grief over what was lost and of joy over what you gained.
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ReplyDeleteI just want to jump through my screen and give the three of you one big, BRIGHT, hug. I smile each time I see Viola's beautiful little face on my Instagram feed - such a doll. xx
ReplyDeleteThank you for being so open in sharing your story. I've been praying for your family since I heard, and am so glad to see you out and about with precious little Viola. She is adorable!
ReplyDeleteThank you for being so open in sharing your story. I've been praying for your family since I heard, and am so glad to see you out and about with precious little Viola. She is adorable!
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