On The Road Again: ICELAND (& some tears).

Today's the day.

We are off to Iceland!

Last year, 

we touched down

in a crazy place we had never visited,

with a group of 20 people 

to lead around a place we'd never been...

...and with the new knowledge 

that we had a belly full of babies.

To say we felt a little uneasy is an understatement,

but it was also an incredibly exciting time for us.

We felt like we were on top of the world.

I thought I looked so pregnant here. Ha! 16 weeks pregnant.

This year, we're walking back to the same starting point,

-maybe limping a little, if I'm honest.

It's really hard for Tyler & I to revisit the places and times

that we associate with the hopes & excitement we had

for having two babies.

I can't really explain it...

but in those moments when you remember what happened

-that you had a child that you loved and that she died-

 it feels like getting the wind knocked out of you.

It feels so terrible and so sad.

You just can't even believe that something so bad actually happened...

and after a few minutes,

 you somehow refocus to whatever was in front of you

recompose yourself,

and wipe off the streams of mascara 

that have dried to whatever is that you were holding- baby included.

I guess the good news is:

there could be worse places & jobs to do

when you're feeling low.

We'll take a trip to Iceland as a win

in the midst of this season of heartache...

And I can guarantee that Viola 

will be having the time of her life.

{Thank you, God, for giving her to us.}

So that's a rare, candid peek 
at where we are
and how we are coping.

We feel undeservingly fortunate
and hopeful of the joy in the life surrounding us
as we muddle through a period of heavy grief.

We'll be hitting the ground running

as soon as we touch down.

Make sure you follow along on instagram (username: aspiringkennedy)

and keep up with the crazy adventures.

*all images original to Aspiring Kennedy